dear diaree.
eventful days. actually. nothing really. yesterday was pretty fun. a little confusing. the night made it alot more. thanks tho nikhy, was a blast talking to yoo. tallness. im still me, and everythings pretty much still the same. except that exams a hell of a lot closer. all the best to us. class attendance tday was ridiculously low. 17? yoo absentees are BUMS! hmmmphs. lols. kiddins. yoo knw i love yoo guys. 307-ers *roll eyes. we`re one of a kind. yeaa. outs.
i dont knw waht to say now
maybe i never did
but how was i supposed to see
all the things yoo hid
i dont knw waht im feeling
or if everythings okay
if i want things to changeor always be this way
i dont knw wahts tomorrow
or the days the follow after
maybe we`ll never ever have
the old times with the laughter
i dont knw if there were old times
cos all the meaningful things were typed
only when yoo held my hand
did yoo and me feel right
i dont knw if yoo ever meant
the things that made my heart melt
but when yoo said i had pretty eyes
that compliment was felt
i dont knw waht we are now
or waht we`ll ever be
could it be time to let go
of this memory?
i dont knw if yoo`re over me
cos i dont see how yoo could still be 'on'
everything that was special
seems to be long gone
i dont knw if im ever gna knw
the person that yoo are
or if all im ever gna see
is the thousand and one personas
i dont knw if i feel like knowing
anything, anymore
not sure if my heart still cares
but its feeling kinda sore
at the way yoo`ve changed,
and the way i dont understand
how yoo could be so different
from the guy who held my hand
im not the average girl
nor do i ever wish to be her
or if waht yoo feel bout me
really really matters
to be totally perfectly honest
i dont knw waht we are right now
i do want to find that out though
someway, somehow
but if yoo`re gna stay in that shell
of dreams lightyears away
yoo`re never gonna really live and love
through every wonderful day
im not trying to be harsh
or anything else thats mean
well maybe a little bit cos im confused
about your email that i`ve seen
the fifteen things yoo mentioned
made me flashback to those times
im kinda running out here
on things that fit and rhyme
i dont knw why im doing this
its very bloody mundane
i dont knw waht yoo`re going thru
i guess i hope it isnt pain
i dont knw waht yoo find in me
that yoo can type but not show
i dont knw why yoo`re insisting
on living thru this - solo.
when this reaches yoo
about 5 seconds from now
i dont knw waht yoo`ll be thinking
waht your feelings will allow
i dont knw waht the point of me
typing all this is
but *, waht i really want to say
is this :
i will never ever judge yoo,
by anything other than waht i knew.
and im trying to hold, and keep in mind
the yoo that once was true.
over and above anything i feel
waht matters is that yoo do your bes
tin the upcoming exams
cos thats the real true test.
this is prolly long enough
to count as a reply
a final quote that i`ll leave yoo with :
would yoo fall, to fly?
nads.
/inject yourself into my veins.
__SMILE (:
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